Old dad (too bad
he’s still breathing)
used to say I was
wasteful with my
money though I
bought the cheapest
single-wide, the
cheapest wheels,
and shopped at
Wal-Mart; but I did
spend in pursuit of
my bliss, which
usually got away
from me anyway.
But if I was wasteful
in my own way, I was
never as wasteful as
Nature herself or the
god old dad (but not
his actions) believed in.
But be the ultimate force
nature or god, I could
never be as wasteful
as it or he who created
all the loving dogs
and cats put to sleep in
“shelters” every day. And
I would never stoop to
waste like whoever or
whatever created 99.9% of
all species that ever existed
on Earth, which are now
extinct. To be and Not
to be. And who or what
could be as wasteful as
whatever shot love into
so many human hearts….
Hearts now shriveled and
hideous like so many heads in
a widowed cannibal’s honeymoon
hut. And I was never one to waste
like whetever fiend hardened so
many erections with no pretty
place to blow their creative cargo.
And I could never want to be as
shamefully wasteful as whatever
cosmic joker decreed that there
should be o so many novels and
letters and lost love poems which
no one will ever feel, much
less read.
— Fyodor Bukowski, author of Mail-Order Annie